Looking forward.

"Perfection is achieved, not when there is nothing more to add, but when there is nothing left to take away."
- Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Airman's Odyssey

A goal is defined as going towards something, not away. It is stated in present tense and and are achieved in self responsibility.

1 Year Goals

3-5 Year Goals

10+ Year Goals

Achieved goals

Goals on hold

review 2023

Reviewing 2023.

I am writing this review in late March 2024 and it's still difficult to think about last year prior to the life-changing events that started unfurling in early November 2023: I left my partner, who I have been in a closed relationship with for fourteen years, married for five and have a wonderful, now ten year old son with. The house plans we had been working on for over three years are off. It's been a tremendously challenging time, strained by emotional and physical pain.

Now almost half a year passed. We are moving into different apartments and are figuring out ways forward. Our future is still uncertain in the midst of this difficult transition. And yet, there are moments of joy, ease and tenderness. I cherish these moments and look to the future with optimism. I see new paths in life and new potential for personal growth for all three of us.

Prior to the rupturing changes in my personal life, I started implementing changes in my professional life: after twelve years of struggling, building, laughing, cursing, publishing and celebrating I retired from all my responsibilities at Broken Rules.
And I retreated from game development in general.

There is a good amount of reasons that made me take the leap, but a central realization is that I've spent more than enough time staring at this bright rectangle in front of me. That is not to say that I'm retiring from computers in general. I probably will always love-hate these electronic boxes full of wonders. But drastically cutting down hours in front of the screen makes time available for other things, like learning a new craft.

My criteria for a new professional direction were:

In October 2023, after a few months of research and meditation, I started a three year training in Shiatsu, a form of Japanese acupressure bodywork based on concepts in traditional Chinese medicine. Different bodywork methods are practiced in my closer family and I look forward to adding my knowledge, broadening my horizon and applying myself to new concepts. To that end I stopped my Kung Fu training and intensified my daily Qi Gong practice.

"The planet does not need more successful people. The planet desperately needs more peacemakers, healers, restorers, storytellers and lovers of all kinds."
- Dalai Lama


Personal Highlights


Personal Lessons

review 2022

Reviewing 2022.

Releasing Gibbon: Beyond the Trees in January had a big impact on the rest of my year, as I went on a professional hiatus afterwards. I dramatically cut my working hours at Broken Rules, giving myself space to figure out what comes next. Since then, I've been a happy houseman, maintaining the household and spending a lot of time in the kitchen, cooking, baking and fermenting. I was able to devote more time to family matters, supporting my son and wife in their developments and projects as well as simply enjoying each other's company.

I continued to practice Kung Fu, but stopped going to the dojo often in the second semester. I managed to keep a meditation routine of at least three sessions per week.

Even though there was a lot going on, I perceived the year as much less packed and stressful than previous years and I appreciated the slower tempo. It's been really good to visit my parents for a whole month - I didn't realize how much I missed them. Even though at odds with my ecological values, we might visit them again in 2023.

Covid has slowed down our plans for the house. We haven't started building yet, but the plans are ready for submission. I'm glad we aren't in a hurry, but we're keeping our fingers crossed for 2023.


Personal Highlights


Personal Lessons

review 2021

Reviewing 2021.

2021 was defined by learning experiences, personal growth and building habits that mitigate the waves of changes and challenges that rolled over my life in the recent years. Within stereotypical proximity to the mid of my life expectancy, several events converged to uncover new and old ideas, values and goals that set me on a trajectory for the next part of my life.

Chasing after new goals, I tend to loose sight of the things that are already there. Deliberate practices cultivating a mindset focused on appreciation of the presence helped me retain a much needed balance. After years of physical, mental and spiritual neglection I was able to shift more towards these aspects by building and maintaining a daily routine, continuing therapy and participating in retreats devoted to personal growth. Meditation and physical exercise noticeably slowed down a perceived deterioration and considerably improved my constitution. Furthermore it enabled me to re-gain healthier sleeping patterns after many years of battling insomnia and other sleeping related maladies.

I met a Kung Fu master who runs a dojo in Vienna. After a first lession I decided that I want to pick up the training again and plan to integrate it in my weekly schedule.

In an effort to find alternative ways of consuming and producing, I joined three solidarity initiatives late this year and I'm looking forward to cultivating my engagement in the coming season.

Switching to a full vegetarian diet in 2020, I started experimenting with fermentation, pickling and sprouting, yielding largely positive results. The experiments shall continue next year.

Delicious and colorful red onions with garlic after four weeks of dry salt fermentation.

Reading is another habit that I picked up again and Project Gutenberg has become one of my most valued resources. I have an old e-ink reader that after modding and jailbraiking became a favorite device.
Favorites books include The Cyberiad (Stanislav Lem), How to do Nothing (Jenny Odell) and surprisingly Iphigenie auf Tauris (Johann Wolfgang von Goethe).

Professionally I'm closing in on the release of a new Broken Rules game project that I have been working on since early 2019. It was a long and challenging one and I am looking forward finally getting it out. While I am very proud of what the team achieved, I think it's save to say that I don't want to work on game projects of this magnitude in the forseeable future. Instead, I would like to focus my digital efforts on projects with less complexity and resource demand.

Plans on the house have been slowly but continually developed over the year. With any luck, we finally start building in 2022. It's going to be an exciting year!

Sketch from last summer. Sadly the small tower didn't make the cut in the final plans.


Personal Highlights

Inventory Changes


Personal Lessons

review 2020

Reviewing 2020.

2020 was a year of changed plans and reconsiderations. While the pandemic wasn't threatening us as much as others, it was a year of changes and challenges. Notable things that happened:

Digital Work

Analog Work


review 2019

Reviewing 2019.



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